Why are you reading this journal? It's probably very pointless..? But, if you must, then you can read it. I shouldn't judge on who reads it or not.

So.. I haven't been very active obviously. And I've been very negative..ish? :/ lol
I'm thinking about quitting DA (if i haven't already done that..)

This is none of your fault. It is all of MINE. Just several of my issues that I have to deal with.. Feel free to speak with me, but I don't know if you would want to..

The main reason why i feel like i must leave is because a bunch of people have left ME. I'm not angry; I believe that people come and go for many reasons and that all the people I've met on here have been a huge impact on my life. Thank you. I don't feel any fury, but i only feel pain. Let me explain. With the internet, I've matured and with the people I've met I've grown and became who i am today. But. The internet is where i met my very FIRST friends. I haven't had any friends before this and I was so happy, as i still am, today for making them. Now. HOW does this relate to my leaving? Well, it's kind of simple, yet complicated. Two very special people left me. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I've changed so much? Or maybe they just don't like me anymore? It doesn't matter. I've cried enough and i think that.. maybe.. it's time for goodbye. And another person has completely forgotten about me after being so close. There you go, my completely stupid story.

I'm still very upset. And unfortunately, I've tried commiting suicide a few times. But, I think I'm feeling better now. Maybe it's because i can't cry no more?

Oh, and my DA friends on MSN..
I'm very glad none of you have deleted me off your bl or blocked me.. I feel as if I'm actually making an imprint on some of your lives. But right now, I feel like I'm a piece of paper just blowing by all of your lives.

There are two OTHER very special people i must thank for being with me through thick and thin (the previous ones also need thanking.. but it's kinda complicated right now), but I must leave now so maybe I'll contact some of you on MSN.

Special thanks to all those who stayed with me. For all the watches and all the love.

I'll see you guys later. Thanks for everything

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"In life, you don't get the people you want. You get the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to make you into the person you were always meant to be in the end."

I love you guys <3